When Tutus, Lacrosse sticks and Eternity Collide

If our Kennedy had been,

She probably would have worn

Tennis shoes

Basketball shoes

And

I’ll guess…cleats too.

I think

She would have vacillated

Between

Pink and sparkles

With all out athleticism.

She would have carried a

Lacrosse stick

And worn disheveled braids,

Knee pads, sparkly tennis shoes

And a bright pink tutu.

When she played she’d be the star.

Everyone would have feared the legendary

Kennedy Drew.

I imagine KD would often lose interest,

Gather the hands of her family and friends

(Cheering for her in the stands,)

To join her in the center of the field

To twirl

Giggle

And be together.

I don’t understand why my

Tutu wearing,

Lacrosse carrying

Granddaughter didn’t take her first breath

I selfishly want her – here!

But it seems she accomplished her life’s goal.

She was equipped with gifts and talents to play this game of life.

Like a champion.

To win.

And win decisively.

God’s plan was for her to walk into

The stadium of her life

And gather her Mom and Dad,

Her future bother and sisters,

Her grandparents,

Aunts, uncles, friends

And communities

Onto her playing field.

To dance

And Laugh

And twirl about.

Kennedy Drew

our Tutu wearing, lacrosse stick carrier

was equipped

To play hard and to win.

(Kennedy Drew - January 20, 2016)

Perspective of a Blue Donkey

         I really like the idea of meeting authors.  I would like to ask: how they decided on the plot; where did the idea for their characters develop; what was their purpose in their writings.  I think I would especially enjoy meeting the authors of classic children’s book.  I reflect often on the truths I’ve gleaned in books written for children.

         One such author would be A. A. Milne, notoriously known for his Winnie The Pooh stories.  His characters, Winnie the Pooh, Tigger, Piglet, Roo, Christopher Robin and Eeyore have a place in our childhood that rival our affections for the mouse family in Orlando.

         As of late, and for the first time in my life, I have felt the temptation to give into the fictional character of the often-blue donkey, Eeyore.  Eeyore sees everything with exhaustion, an expectation for disappointment and even depression.  Eeyore was often illustrated looking over his shoulder at his pinned on tail.  Even then his comments were, “Could be worse. Not sure how, but it could be.”

         This week as I drove east early in the morning there were dark clouds much like the ones illustrated with Eeyore.  I looked in my rear view window to notice one small pinhole of light coming through the darkness.  As I tried to stay focused in the direction I was driving, I kept looking at this “pinhole” of light growing ever bigger.

         I thought about what our family has been experiencing in grief over a little more than two months.  That ray of light made me think I don’t know the “why” of what has happened; yet I believe the Lord may show us that He was there.

         I can be like Eeyore and point to the “cloud” and all it’s pain or I can move forward.  As I keep looking back I can begin to see more and more that the Lord WAS there.  As He is with us now, He was with us then and He is waiting for me with every step.

         Moving forward helps me to have perspective of what is behind me.  I don’t want to be like Eeyore with my head flipped over my shoulder all the time.  However, when I do glance backward I want to recognize more light than dark.

I Corinthians 13: 12

Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.  All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.  

         Though I won’t have the opportunity to meet A. A. Milne and ask him about the character development of Eeyore, I hope he too found the light and joy that can only be found in the understanding of our perfect Savior Jesus. Seeing Jesus instead of a blue donkey will help keep those dark clouds in perspective!